This bomb has just exploded. It didn't went the way it should be but it did trigger some people to stand up and notice what is around them. This person messed with the wrong people. He messed with the wrong crowd. Want me to name him? CHIWEN "MORON" HUANG!

I have been holding back on a confrontation with him coz I know my boss would take his side. Let me name the things that he did that really pissed me off:

1. He tarnished my reputation and my dignity by telling freakin' lies to my boss. He questioned my competence and efficiency after working with me for less than a week. And his intention? To steal my job from me! That's a sign of being a moron. Now he gets my job and I resigned a month earlier knowing that it will end like this.

2. He not only wants to get my job but my friend the VP's job as well. Quite evidently shown by his constant meddling with all the departments even operations. He steps on other people's territory acting like he is the boss. Nobody likes him not even the security guards so does he think he can survive at work? Doubt it!

3. He disturbs a very great party which was supposed to be a sort-of despidida party for me and for another colleague. It was supposed to be our way of cherishing and saying goodbye to our very much loved colleagues by being with them on that night. Well he blew it by just a simple miscommunication.

4. "I want him out of here now or I will call....blahblahblah" The balls of this person! Who does he think he is!

5. He used foul language to my friend, my friend who is his superior! The nerve!!!!

6. He told me " F*ck you! Who the hell you are?" simply because I asked him a question about his intention. Moron!! If only I could beat that four-eyed monster!!

I have this message to you MORON:

You pissed the wrong people! The people whom you would be working for and with for a few months ,weeks or lets just say for few days. You dont know who we are. You dont know me! I have been holding back this anger for the past month. You saw my shoutouts? That was for you! Nobody gets away with cursing me. You will never get away with this. FOREVER!

Sometimes change makes us better, it makes us stronger, makes us accept new challenges. But why do most people repel change. It might be because change takes us out of our comfort zone, brings us to new things that we might not like, or disrupts our routine. Life is a constant change, as they say. Life is an unending cycle of things, a roller coaster ride. And change would always be part of this cycle and this ride.

I have seldom been uncomfortable with change. I have often faced change with positivity. It made me who I am now, the "Iron Woman" as some of them say. If not for change, I wouldn't have been the type who takes risks and goes out of my box just to see how everything will go. What changes have I done and been constantly doing?

1. Hairstyle - most girls have this theory in mind that guys love 'em straight and shiny. Well, i experiment with them. Long, medium-length, uber-short, black, streaks, BLONDE (which i thought would make me look like a native teacher when in fact it made me look like a Badjaw), with bangs or shaggy-like hair, curly, straight, half-straight & half-curled. What else did I not do with my hair?

2. Weight - now this is a change which certain situations are half-responsible, the other half would be me. For the past 6 years my weight has been through its own ups and downs. A year of being within a normal weight then a year of having stick-thin body, then back to the normal to extra pounds heavier, then to getting near my dream weight in China and then now to being overweight (duh!) here in the Philippines. How to maintain my ideal weight? One probable answer....STAY IN CHINA!

3. Style - this is one of the weirdest I have become. I had done the hip-hop type in high school, the super-sexy revealing outfits in first year college, to the baggy clothes in 2nd year, the hell-i-care look in the next two years, the professional look afterward, to sneaker-type, sandal-wearing , slipper-comfy times of the recent years. Today, i have preference for head-turning style of shorty shorts and extravagant summer clothes. Next few months?????? Just wait and see.

4. Work - I always believe that like my mom I could be a "Jack of all trade" type of person. So my career is heading to different directions. Been into writing, teaching, consulting, marketing, baby sitting, cleaning (did it when i was in hk and had nothing to do), dog-walking, sales, etc etc etc... And I am not yet stopping. I have to broaden my horizon, explore the unexplored depths of my being and ready to take anything that will be thrown my way.

5. Place - Imagine going to a place where you don't know anybody, don't have any idea of what it looks like and be completely lost in translation? I did it and I am still willing to do it again. Anyplace at anytime. Bring it on!

Now these are just a few of the changes I have been to in my life. Well, it might not be that extraordinary or just typical but at least I did many changes in my life. And I think I am up to making a whole lotta change in the next few months or so. If you are lucky enough you might see and with more luck you could be a part of it.

Tick..tock...tick...tock

Just like a raging bomb, a sleeping volcano, I may be as peaceful and as quiet as it seems but I'm nearing its end point. Ive been silent, obedient through this time but dont provoke me coz I would really take your heart out and squash it into pieces with my bare hands. I had nothing against you and I treated you well but there are times when people who want to go on top has to step on other people and use them as ladders. That is the kind of person you are. Let us see how well you do with your newfound fame and glory with the "almighty all high" and when you fall down and I wish you fall down hard I would be there standing and laughing out loud.

Rain... a time when I wish I was just at home sleeping. Rain darkens my mood and I dont know why. Maybe I hate getting wet, bringing an umbrella or just the sound of the swishhhh..swooosh... of the rain mixed with heavy wind. I dont know how to walk in the rain as evident with my mud-splattered jeans when I get home. I dont like when water from the rain gets into my newly washed hair or my face. I dont like my bag or my clothes getting wet and I hate getting my feet dirty and WET!

Rain dampens ones spirit especially mine. Rain, they say, signifies the dawning of a bright day ahead. But what if there is no bright day after the rain?

"It's easy to form an attachment to people and things. When you've formed an attachment to people and things, it can be a very painful experience and feeling when you realized that it's time to let go. Even the mere thought of not having that person or thing in your life just squeezes your heart in pain.

However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path."

Ivy, our little sister sent me this message. It's her way of expressing her emotion of our impending "break-up". Letting go is a hard notion for her to consider and I think a lot of us has this. But because I have been to many distant relationships e.g family, baobao, friends, I can easily handle it, i think.

I know being attached has its perks but it also can prove to be painful once something or someone breaks it apart. But with relationships, you can be attached eventhough you are far away from each other. With technology now, distance wont be a hindrance in building and improving relationships. It might be different from seeing each other, talking, chatting, or just being behind each other but you can still do all these things through the internet. Just remember, that distance wont hinder relationships to work out, change wont be enough to let go of relationships and true friendship surpasses anything even distance.

ELITES!












Staying in CELI has been one of my most cherished experience in life.
Meeting all of you made it all worthwhile.
Having you in my everyday life has led me to believe that friends will be there til the end...
Being with you shows how wonderful life is for us who dont have their families around...
Holding our hands makes us realize that there will be no problem too big if we have each other...
Keeping our lives together will make me believe that our friendship will surpass distance and cross bounderies.

I'm back! Back to the blogging world. What made me do it? What made me go back to something that I was so in to since I was a young girl? I remembered I had this binder notebook that was full of poems or intended songs when I was in grade school until highschool. Everytime I feel happy, sad, depressed or just any time I feel like writing I put it all out there. Unfortunately it was naturally destroyed...unintentionally. Imagine I was able to compose a song with my own melody when I was in third year highschool!! I had like two or three classmates who listened to that song and thought it was from the radio. That was just my two-second moment of glory. Nobody heard it again coz I was too shy to let anybody know it. And I thought the song was just a piece of junk and I still think it that way upto now. Had experienced pride with writing through joining the presscons from third year to fourth year and even heading the yearbook and being part of the newspaper team in highschool. But it all went poof!! when I went to college. College became a frustration for me. It was a time of rebellion from people I love and from the institution that I graduated in. It was that chapter of my life that I plan never to go back though I met great people when it was near its end.

Now, why am I here? We go back to my first questions. I am here coz I realized this is the only outlet I have to express what I feel and what I want other people to know. This the only place I could ever be that frank and direct. This is where I would feel the whole world's problems dont exist.