Rain... a time when I wish I was just at home sleeping. Rain darkens my mood and I dont know why. Maybe I hate getting wet, bringing an umbrella or just the sound of the swishhhh..swooosh... of the rain mixed with heavy wind. I dont know how to walk in the rain as evident with my mud-splattered jeans when I get home. I dont like when water from the rain gets into my newly washed hair or my face. I dont like my bag or my clothes getting wet and I hate getting my feet dirty and WET!

Rain dampens ones spirit especially mine. Rain, they say, signifies the dawning of a bright day ahead. But what if there is no bright day after the rain?

"It's easy to form an attachment to people and things. When you've formed an attachment to people and things, it can be a very painful experience and feeling when you realized that it's time to let go. Even the mere thought of not having that person or thing in your life just squeezes your heart in pain.

However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path."

Ivy, our little sister sent me this message. It's her way of expressing her emotion of our impending "break-up". Letting go is a hard notion for her to consider and I think a lot of us has this. But because I have been to many distant relationships e.g family, baobao, friends, I can easily handle it, i think.

I know being attached has its perks but it also can prove to be painful once something or someone breaks it apart. But with relationships, you can be attached eventhough you are far away from each other. With technology now, distance wont be a hindrance in building and improving relationships. It might be different from seeing each other, talking, chatting, or just being behind each other but you can still do all these things through the internet. Just remember, that distance wont hinder relationships to work out, change wont be enough to let go of relationships and true friendship surpasses anything even distance.

ELITES!












Staying in CELI has been one of my most cherished experience in life.
Meeting all of you made it all worthwhile.
Having you in my everyday life has led me to believe that friends will be there til the end...
Being with you shows how wonderful life is for us who dont have their families around...
Holding our hands makes us realize that there will be no problem too big if we have each other...
Keeping our lives together will make me believe that our friendship will surpass distance and cross bounderies.

I'm back! Back to the blogging world. What made me do it? What made me go back to something that I was so in to since I was a young girl? I remembered I had this binder notebook that was full of poems or intended songs when I was in grade school until highschool. Everytime I feel happy, sad, depressed or just any time I feel like writing I put it all out there. Unfortunately it was naturally destroyed...unintentionally. Imagine I was able to compose a song with my own melody when I was in third year highschool!! I had like two or three classmates who listened to that song and thought it was from the radio. That was just my two-second moment of glory. Nobody heard it again coz I was too shy to let anybody know it. And I thought the song was just a piece of junk and I still think it that way upto now. Had experienced pride with writing through joining the presscons from third year to fourth year and even heading the yearbook and being part of the newspaper team in highschool. But it all went poof!! when I went to college. College became a frustration for me. It was a time of rebellion from people I love and from the institution that I graduated in. It was that chapter of my life that I plan never to go back though I met great people when it was near its end.

Now, why am I here? We go back to my first questions. I am here coz I realized this is the only outlet I have to express what I feel and what I want other people to know. This the only place I could ever be that frank and direct. This is where I would feel the whole world's problems dont exist.